edge of desire
Girl crush.
(Source: kimlundgren, via youngrecklesshearts-deactivated)
Can’t begin to say how blessed I am to have the guy God has placed in my life. It’s a fresh start. A step closer to beginning a family, starting a marriage, makin’ plans. I rushed everything with my last, I did, I went into the situation blindsided by that “I’ve known you for forever” but see this time things are different. We made no commitments, no promises, no nothing. He only wants whats best for me. Gives me that sense of you can do anything you put your mind to. I mean outside of the fact he’s 30 and I’m 20. Our birthday is 3 days apart and in so many ways were the same person but yet were still perfect opposites. We share the same interest, dislikes, but also have our opposing opinions about a stock of things. I love it. I absolutely love it. I love how we pray together, go to church together, confide in each other, I absolutely love pulling into his driveway after work knowing that no matter If he’s sleep, showering, cooking or cleaning. I can walk in and instantly rant about how much I hate my job and he’ll stop what he’s doing to listen to all my pointless stories about work. I love it. From our random projects like building or buying bird houses, home decor shopping, planting trees together, shopping together, random trips to Toys R’Us for toys for his godson, just any and everything we do, we do together. From arguing over the tv, playing video games together, looking up recipes and grocery shopping together. Ive never been with someone who values my time with him as much as he does and I love it. I absolutely love it. Who would’ve thought at age 20 id land a spot with a successful engineer who’s 30 and has his entire life ahead of him but would rather wait for a 20 year old to get to his level of success because if you come up together it’ll feel much better. I love it. I’m not in love with him but I must say I am in love with our friendship. It means the absolute most to me. There’s so much I love about him that makes me believe in love at first sight but I’m a smart girl so I know it doesn’t exist. I’m just thankful that God has placed someone who keeps me on my toes, who only has eyes for me, who leaves his phone open and tells me to read and respond to his text messages and makes me study when I need to study and gets upset when I doubt myself. Who loves the dorky me who reads a good book while he’s asleep and he wakes up to cut off the light after I fall asleep reading. There’s cons also but the pros have outweighed the cons on too many occasions so I’m happy. I’ve never felt as content and happy with life before in my life. Finally a happy girl.
“This I know that God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you.”
